this is my new violi, i named her phybee, it's a pearl river violin from gwangzhou china. I bought her from dubai, uae

My stand for a lie told on me

Just this Saturday, I was with some of my friends in class. We had a snack and I suddenly asked the question “Masama ba ugali ko?” Because I have this feeling that there are people in our class who hate me, so to speak. But my friends answered, “Hindi naman, kasundo ka naman namin.” Suddenly after saying those words, she opened up something, a statement. Her statement made me surprised and so to speak, shocked (I think that’s a better word). That very statement unlocked and answered all the questions I have in mind. Want to know what is it? Well, I am accused of “ako raw ang nagsumbong sa isang prof na may cheating na naganap during one of our pre finals exam(I am not sure if its prefinals or finals). Someone said he/ she saw me daw na ako daw and nagsumbong.

Here is my stand:

1. Upon hearing those, I am really surprised because I didn’t even know that there was a cheating case in our class during that exam.

2. I didn’t even notice where those people, involved, are seated.

3. Darn! Whoever saw me approached that prof, I am telling you, I never had a talk with that prof one on one. Duh! Why would I?

4. I have a witness that I haven’t done what is accused of me. To tell you, I have a best friend in class whom I am with almost “24/7”.

5. If it’s true that I am the one, whoever spreads that rumor, he/she must tell me personally what place, what time, what day, and how did I approach that prof (exactly, if it needs demonstration, then go).

To the person/s guilty: You know what? I am emotionally harassed dahil s pakikitungo niyo. All this time kaya pala kayo ganun dahil dun. I didn’t even know. Some are also backstabbing me. (I am not saying those people involved are the backstabbers). How sure are you na ako nga un? Wala naman ako pakialam sa inyo kahit magcheat kayo, I didn’t even know na nagchicheat pala kayo, just a few days ko lang nalaman. Wala naman ako mapapala sa pagsusumbong, buti sana kung yayaman ako sa pagsusumbong ng isang cheating case.

I am open to have a talk with you to clarify things. I just can’t stand what is happening now. I need to clean my name.

The Healing of Memories: A Prayer

Father, I thank You for your son, who died on the cross not only for my sins, but for my fears. I thank You that Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever, and that He wants me to be completely whole: spirit, soul, and body. Lord Jesus, I ask You to walk back through every second of my life. Heal me and make me whole. Go back into the third and fourth generations and break harmful genetic ties.

Jesus, You knew all about me even before i was born. Thank You for being there as life begun. If fear or any other negative force was transmitted to me as i was in my mother's womb, set me free from those things. Thank you, Lord Jesus, for being there when i was born and loving me. (Some came into this world not being loved, and not being wanted, and they felt such rejection. Lord Jesus, from the very beginning, fill each one with your precious love.)

Lord walk back through every second of my life during those years. ( Some were separated from parents because of sickness or death; some were born into large families and did not receive the love that was needed.) Lord Jesus, go back and fill every void, give the love that was not received. Remove every hurt. Take away all fears: fear of darkness, fear of falling, fear of animals, fear of being lost. I thank You, Jesus, for setting me free and healing me.

Lord Jesus, I thank You for my mother. (For those who did not have the love of a mother, fill that void, that empty place and give them the love that was needed.) I ask you to stand in between my mother and me for any way i have hurt or failed her, and I forgive her for any way she hurt of failed me. Lord Jesus, I thank you for my dad. (For all those who did not feel the love of an earthly dad, please give them all the love they need but didn't receive.) Stand between my dad and me. I pray that Your divine love will mend any broken relationship. I ask forgiveness from my dad for any way I hurt or failed him, and I forgive him for any way he hurt or failed me.

I lift up my brothers and sisters to you. Where there were feelings of competition, jealousy or resentment. I ask that your healing power and love amend every broken relationship. I forgive each brother and sisiter for hurting or failing me and I ask their forgiveness for huting or failing them.

Thank You, Lord, for being there in my teenage years when I was in high school there were new problems and fears. As each painful memory is brought to my mind, I pray that you will take a spiritual eraser and wipe the pain from my mind. Take away any feeling of humiliation, embarrassment, guilt, fear, or failure. ( Some have been teased because of race, looks, size, poverty and they were wounded so deeply.) Let each person know You love him or her as a special, unique individual and that you were there in every situation. As each of us started to leave home there were new fears, frustrations or hurt. ( Some wanted to go to college and were not able to, others were not able to enter the profession they had dreamed of, and they felt such disappointment). Jesus, please heal every disappointment and every hurt.

Now, Lord Jesus, thank you for walking through every second of my life up to this exact moment. Thank you for healing me of all my hurts, my painful memories and my fears, for setting me free. Thank You for filling me with your love. Help me to love others. But most of all, Jesus, help me to love as I want. I thank You for giving me peace. Thank You, Jesus. I thank you for going way down deep into the darkest recesses of my mind and cleansing me. I thank You Jesus for making me whole; and give you all the praise and the glory. In Your name I pray. Amen.

-Lana, Ocampo, Santos, Laig. (2004). Marriage and Family: A Life of Love and Commitment (page 105 - 106)

Yesterday's Baguio

Yesterday, we should have been in baguio early in the morning but unfortunately, tinamaan ako ng kadikan ko sa pagtulog, mga 10.00am na ko naging so what time kami nakaalis ng bahay? mga 1pm na!! Aun ang late namin nakarating mga 2.30 kami nakarating... I am with my brother dale, our youngest brother did not come because he still have classes. My cousins Leal and Leslie with her baby and Fiance are also with us. My mommy (tita) fetch us at the terminal and we immediately went to SM to have our lunch at Sizzling Plate,,, umiral na naman ang katakawan ko, grabe, simut na simot ang order ko at kinain ko pa ung rice ng pinsan ko na hindiniya naubos. I'm very sure na tataba talaga ako ngaung sembreak. Pagkatapos kumain, naglibut libot na kami sa mall,, pinasyal namin ung baby namin,,, hahaha,, pag dating ng hapon,,, mga around 5.00pm,,, naramdaman ko na ang lamig ng baguio... sobrang lamig... that time my cousins went home to their mom's house, there they will spend their night and weekend... kami naman ng kapatid ko sa bahay ng family friend namin with my mommy... but before that, my mommy brought us to the venue of their meeting at the Mountain Lodge. we waited for her until they are done with their meeting... it's good i brought with me my brother's psp, but unfortunately, it got its battery empty. It's good that i have unlimited text messages but my phone is nearly battery empty. Again, it's good that there is a tv in the lodge. Ayun nanuod muna ko,,, hahahah... at lumipat sina tita sa place namin to continue their meeting... umabot ng mga 9.00 pm ung meeting nila... ang lamig lamig pa grabe... nakauwi na kami after ng meeting nila... dinner? seafoods (crabs and bangus) hahaha! after ng dinner,, sa room na kami... katabi ko brother ko sa pagtulog,, naadik nanaman ako sa psp aun,, late ako natulog,, sobrang lmig talaga... ung tubig na galing sa faucet parang galing sa ref,,, sobrang lamig,,, buti nalng may heater,,, Guys,, try visit baguio, masaya nagun dun,, malamig,, alis muna kau manila na sobrang init,,, waahahahahha!!!!

Home....

At last, after 4 months of longing for home, i'm home.... It's good to smell fresh air upon waking up in the morning... good to see the sun shining upon you... good to eat very delicious food and nutritious food... good to sleep in a well fixed and furnitured room... good to be with my brother... good to see my grandparents... good to meet my first nephew... it's good to be home and away from that very polluted and scavengerful city... from that very dirty and dark city and from that very dangerous city... but i miss school and also... Glee club... I miss to sing with them...